NEVER LOOSE HOPE—
I was encouraged to start a blog as I suffer from MCS /multi chemical sensitivities & other health problems & I have helped several hundred others who suffer from MCS set up “Safe Homes” & given them encouragement & HOPE & share information & lots of laughs along the way also. When you choose to use fragrances, chemicals, or pesticides, You are not simply making a choice for yourself, You are making a choice for everyone around you!!!! What makes me an expert on MCS– not a darn thing– BUT have lived with it for years-& years- & have learned lots the HARD WAY– by experience!! And want to give others help & HOPE & encouragement — as I know there are not many who understand what it is to live with this illness- & ALL THAT GOES WITH IT!!! Internet has been my way of communication with many who we are confined to their “safe homes” all over the USA & other countries!! I have communicated with many HUNDRED by e-mail– phone & letters & internet forums– I hope this blog will help in a better way to share laughter– hope & information!!! As for many are not any longer able to even leave their homes– & communication is so important & sharing & encouragement & GIVING HOPE!!!
I AM GOING TO TALK ABOUT SOMETHING TODAY — I HAVE NOT TALKED ABOUT ON THIS BLOG BEFORE—- SUICIDE–
I DON’T KNOW WHERE TO START ON THIS — BUT WHEN I STARTED THIS BLOG— I WANTED TO SHARE HOPE— & THAT HOPE HAS TAKEN MANY — DIRECTIONS SINCE I STARTED THIS BLOG— I HAVE MET SOME OF THE MOST INTERESTING– CARING– LOVING– WEIRD– CRAZY– YOU NAME IT PEOPLE– WHO MANY HAVE BECOME MY FAMILY— MANY WON’T COMMENT ON MY BLOG POSTS– BUT E-MAIL ME— I GET ALL KINDS OF E-MAILS— & I MEAN ALL KINDS OF E-MAILS FROM ENCOURAGEMENT– TO BUTT CHEWING– TO JOKES– TO EVERY DAY EXPERIENCES– TO SONDA– PLEASE HELP ME—OR– I’M GOING TO KILL MYSELF!!!!!!!!!! AND THAT HAS NOT CAME FROM JUST ONE OF MY MCS SISTERS BUT MORE THEN ONE!!!!!!!!!!!
THE FIRST TIME I MADE A SIGN–TO PUT OUTSIDE MY OFFICE DOOR THAT READ: PLEASE DO NOT DISTURB-– WAS WHEN GARY KEPT MAKING NOISE & KEPT TOTALLY DISTRACTING ME— AND FINALLY– I WENT TO HIM– WITH TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE & CRYING SO HARD I COULD HARDLY TALK–OR BREATHE & SAID—– PLEASE- PLEASE- PLEASE –GARY— ONE OF MY MCS SISTERS IS PLAYING E-MAIL TAG WITH ME– & SHE WANTS TO COMMIT SUICIDE!! I AM TRYING TO HELP HER– & I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO— & ALL YOUR NOISE IS NOT A HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MCS IS NOT ONE OF THE BEST ILLNESS WE COULD PICK— BUT THEN AGAIN I GUESS NONE OF US PICKED IT — DID WE???????? 🙂
I HAVE MCS SISTERS ALL OVER THE WORLD– SOME HAVE & SOME HAVE NOT— SOME LIVE IN HOMES– SOME LIVE IN TENTS & TO THEIR VANS– OR MOTOR HOMES– TO MCS SAFE SMALL HOMES– & EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN!!!
BUT ALL OF US UNDERSTAND THE LOSS OF HOPE & DEPRESSION & BEING TOTALLY DISCOURAGED ——– AND THE ISOLATION THAT MCS BRINGS TO OUR LIVES!!!!!!!
I HAVE SAID TO EACH MCS SISTER WHO ASKED ME FOR HELP—– I DON’T HAVE THE ANSWERS— I SURE AS HELL DON’T HAVE THE ANSWERS— BUT — I CARE— I LOVE YOU & I AM HERE TO LISTEN TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND EVEN IF THEY WERE NOT CHRISTIANS & EVEN IF THEY DIDN’T BELIEVE IN GOD— THEY LET ME PRAY WITH THEM!!!!!!! BECAUSE GOD IS MY ANSWER!!!!
I HAVE ONE MCS SISTER WHO TELLS ME— SHE IS ONLY HERE BECAUSE I GAVE HER HOPE— WELL I PRAISE GOD FOR THE HOPE THAT I HAVE THROUGH JESUS CHRIST MY LORD & SAVIOR –WHICH I WAS ABLE TO SHARE THAT HOPE WITH HER!!!
WHEN I STARTED THIS BLOG—- I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT KINDS OF HOPE I NEEDED TO SHARE—
AND THIS BLOG HAS BROUGHT MANY KINDS OF HOPE TO ME AlSO!!!!!!! AND I WANT TO THANK EACH OF YOU FOR THE HOPE YOU HAVE SHARED WITH ME!!!!!!!!!
WITH THE DEATH OF ROBIN WILLIAMS WE SEE IT IS PEOPLE OF ALL LEVELS & JOBS & PLACES IN LIFE WHO FIGHT TO FIND HOPE!!!!!!!
SO TODAY I AM SHARING— SOME INFORMATION WITH YOU—-
AND YES– I WILL NEVER EVER KNOW THE WORDS TO SAY TO YOU– FOR YOU TO KNOW REAL HOPE— BUT I WILL ALWAYS HAVE EARS TO LISTEN TO YOU!!!!!!!!! AND I WILL ALWAYS BE HAPPY TO PRAY WITH YOU TO GOD WHO DOES KNOW THE ANSWERS THROUGH JESUS CHRIST MY LORD & SAVIOR!!!!
NEVER LOOSE HOPE!!
If you are in crisis, please call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or visit www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
The following signs may mean someone is at risk for suicide. The risk of suicide is greater if a behavior is new or has increased and if it seems related to a painful event, loss, or change. If you or someone you know exhibits any of these signs, seek help as soon as possible by calling the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
- Talking about wanting to die or to kill themselves.
- Looking for a way to kill themselves, such as searching online or buying a gun
- Talking about feeling hopeless or having no reason to live.
- Talking about feeling trapped or in unbearable pain.
- Talking about being a burden to others.
- Increasing the use of alcohol or drugs.
- Acting anxious or agitated; behaving recklessly.
- Sleeping too little or too much.
- Withdrawing or isolating themselves.
- Showing rage or talking about seeking revenge.
- Displaying extreme mood swings.
KEEPING MY MOUTH SHUT & PRAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙂